new xanga

[if you want it bad enough, you'll find it.]

just needed to start over
at least i can do that on xanga..

i might copy the most recent blogs
into the new one.
we'll see how much time i have..

so sing along for me

music is comforting.
when everything changes,
the lyrics stay the same.

when melody has nothing to hold
i'll be the last sound that you hear
as your eyes close

if I were to write the song
that could penetrate your ears
would it calm your trembling soul?
would it ease your every fear?

i'm outside of your window with my radio
you are the only station,
you play the song I know
you are the song I know

i was born to tell you
that i love you.
isn't that a song already?
i get a B in originality.
and it's true, i can't go on without you.
your smile makes me see clearer.
if you could only see
in the mirror what i see.

you never know what temporal days may bring
so laugh, love, live free and sing
when life is in dischord
praise ye the Lord

<3

bury me

 
I swear that you dont have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow,
to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
and spend every moment I have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith that I had in you



Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same
                 
I thought with a month of apart,
together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across the key,
or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
and you'd help me out of the dark
and I'd give my heart as an offering



and I will always remember you as you are right now to me

So sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But i cant forget you
so when this is over don't blow your composure baby



I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to...

if she moves like this, will you move her like that?

[.edit.]
more icon-age

so
winter ball was pretty good.
all things considered.
dinner at the tower
was the coolest thing ever.
we had so much fun being dumb in formals.

on the way home from mike's last night
all i could think about
was how this was not at all
"according to plan."
it's not how i pictured senior year.
it's not what my heart tells me it should be.
but i'm loving it so much more
than i ever thought i could with this new group.

so for now,
i'm ignoring my heart.
if i had followed my heart before,
i would have been in texas by august.
i would have gone to oklahoma this summer
and done something with marshall that i would regret.
i would have gotten sucked in by those
that i now choose to forget.
i would be alone.

So now it's done
Say goodbye to the chance that was once within your reach
Kiss farewell to your loss, to your lack of decency
You'll never know what you missed,
What you could have found in me
Insincere is the word to describe you best from me

A made up romance, my soliloquy will read
I know I'm lost again, my timing's off again
Something lacks in your passing eyes

As the clock spins, so does the room
The days pass the same the promise is kept for a lifetime

So I'll kill the doubt
I'll put the fire out
Extinguish everything
Might even forget your name
Waiting for you
Come back
And let me off the hook again

I'll paint just one portrait of us
And I'll tear it down
To remind me of sunrise goodbyes
So we know something we should never try

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way

i know it seems like we're never coming back..

this won't be easily overcome.
it's hard to have this much emotion
about something you can't talk about.
...at least not to them.

because
no one
will ever
understand.

please hold me tightly
i don't care if i can breathe tonight

i'll breathe you in
i won't let you down
i won't hold you back
i won't make a sound
i know what scares you the most

you know you do, you kill me well
you like it too, and i can tell
you'll never stop until my final breath is gone

these words will fade
when you explain why you hate them

all i have is a memory of what was
so let's pretend this never mattered to us

just wake me when it's over
when the curtains raise
it's time to move on

i wish i could have known you better
i should blame it on the weather
this was over from the start
does it even matter?
our situation's getting worse

RIP Casey Calvert